Fri
Jan
20
nor is there comfort in the night, no clarity in the stillness, no inspiring dreams of what was or might come to be, there is guilt, damnation, condemnation, regret, loneliness but the worse is when i close my eyes and see their faces and all at once it becomes clear as nights sky this is my reality. we humans toss our fate like a pair of dice, we dont know what will come up but we were the ones who chose to throw them in that direction
Thu
Sep
29
I really dont care if you say people like me arent needed, but what is “like me” lets describe me which you hate so much. I fight for capitalistic america, i am solider, i am fighter. i do things which 99% of our population is to scared to do, i get shot at and shoot back, i fight to protect what i love, what is it that i love? is it a place, is it a certain person, no i dont think that its either of those, i think its more of a memory that i am fighting for. a time in my life when i could say that i was truly happy. i want to make sure there is still a world where memories like that can happen. i really dont care if you or even america says what were doing here is wrong, you all have no clue what it is like here, you have no clue what the people who hate us are like and how far they are willing to go to do us harm. this uniform i put on everyday is soaked with my own blood, the blood of my friends and the blood of my enemies. i have done that which no man should have ever done to another living being. you say people like shouldnt even deserve to live, but the cold truth is people like me necessary for people like you. i will keep fighting and loosing till people like you can make a difference in this world. i will continue to protect the sheep of this world who would rather close there eyes and pretend the wolves arent out there waiting to attack, i will continue to be the ever watchful protector of my flock, of my people. i really dont care if the sheep dont like the dog who is out there fighting off something they dont believe is out waiting for them, untill you can create a world where people like me which you hate so much are not needed, i will continue to fight, that is my purpose
Wed
Sep
28
just another day that i wake up to bombs going off, just another day i wake up to get shot at, just another day i spend in hell, just another day where people like arent needed in this world. just another day where i hold on to hope
Sun
Aug
7
today is the first day on my journey into hell
Mon
Aug
1
its sad to think about how much hope i had for the future just a few months ago
Sun
Jul
3
i want to leave evidence that i lived, and that the life that i lived had meaning, that the love that loved would be something people wish for years from now, that the war that i fought had meaning, that the lives that i saved would later go on to make the world a better place. the thoughts and opinions i shared would have helped another make a better choice. that i showed others the great light and salvation of Christ as one other had shown me. but above all else i hope that one day before the end that i may give one other all of the contents of my shattered heart, and that in return she would do the same. we are all broken people but there is a beauty which no words can describe when one broken life finds meaning in anothers and is able to finally be at peace
Wed
Oct
6
the time of the airman leaders are over, the time of the airman is now
