i am choosing to not eat tonight rather then going to McDonald’s this will be hard without you here to cook, thank you for the meals you made for me
When so many are lonely as seem to be lonely, it would be inexcusably selfish to be lonely alone
For just the slightest of moments today I felt like there might still be a spark in my soul, that my heart yet beat once more. It was like seeing a picture whole again after it was torn to shreds as if in that one little moment the whole universe stopped and all that was there was the warmth of the sun shinning down on me. It was beautiful and more then anything I wish you were there to witness and be apart of it
nor is there comfort in the night, no clarity in the stillness, no inspiring dreams of what was or might come to be, there is guilt, damnation, condemnation, regret, loneliness but the worse is when i close my eyes and see their faces and all at once it becomes clear as nights sky this is my reality. we humans toss our fate like a pair of dice, we dont know what will come up but we were the ones who chose to throw them in that direction
I really dont care if you say people like me arent needed, but what is “like me” lets describe me which you hate so much. I fight for capitalistic america, i am solider, i am fighter. i do things which 99% of our population is to scared to do, i get shot at and shoot back, i fight to protect what i love, what is it that i love? is it a place, is it a certain person, no i dont think that its either of those, i think its more of a memory that i am fighting for. a time in my life when i could say that i was truly happy. i want to make sure there is still a world where memories like that can happen. i really dont care if you or even america says what were doing here is wrong, you all have no clue what it is like here, you have no clue what the people who hate us are like and how far they are willing to go to do us harm. this uniform i put on everyday is soaked with my own blood, the blood of my friends and the blood of my enemies. i have done that which no man should have ever done to another living being. you say people like shouldnt even deserve to live, but the cold truth is people like me necessary for people like you. i will keep fighting and loosing till people like you can make a difference in this world. i will continue to protect the sheep of this world who would rather close there eyes and pretend the wolves arent out there waiting to attack, i will continue to be the ever watchful protector of my flock, of my people. i really dont care if the sheep dont like the dog who is out there fighting off something they dont believe is out waiting for them, untill you can create a world where people like me which you hate so much are not needed, i will continue to fight, that is my purpose
just another day that i wake up to bombs going off, just another day i wake up to get shot at, just another day i spend in hell, just another day where people like arent needed in this world. just another day where i hold on to hope
